by S.K. Falls
Published June 3rd 2013
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Saylor Grayson makes herself sick. Literally.
She ate her first needle when she was seven. Now, at nineteen, she’s been kicked out of college for poisoning herself with laxatives. The shrinks call it Munchausen Syndrome. All Saylor knows is that when she’s ill, her normally distant mother pays attention and the doctors and nurses make her feel special.
Then she meets Drew Dean, the leader of a local support group for those with terminal diseases. When he mistakes her for a new member, Saylor knows she should correct him. But she can’t bring herself to, not after she’s welcomed into a new circle of friends. Friends who, like Drew, all have illnesses ready to claim their independence or their lives.
For the first time, Saylor finds out what it feels like to be in love, to have friends who genuinely care about her. But secrets have a way of revealing themselves. What will happen when Saylor’s is out?
My first thoughts on Secret for a Song were, "He’s terminally ill and she hurts herself for attention. If that ain’t dysfunctional I don’t know what is. Toxic relationship...ticking time bomb maybe. And yet, I’m really looking forward to reading this. This has a very different story line. Sounds like it may be a really good one." I was not disappointed!
I ate my first needle when I was seven.
Saylor was a new type of YA character for me. I've been exposed to terminally ill and mentally unstable; but never an individual that's unstable to the point of desiring to be constantly ill. The severity of her situation was truly disturbing. I kept wondering why no one would suggest a little white padded room. I needed constant reading fortification and motivation reinforcement to get through this read. This female is seriously sick with the self inflicting harm. She had it down to a science and S.K.Falls didn't skimp on the details. Weak stomachs beware! This is not one to read paired with a lite snack.
The romance was sweet and I wanted so badly for it not to have been built on a mole hill of lies. This novel completely shattered my expectations on "the perfect guy". Drew was a perfect gentleman and swoon worthy lead even with his ailment. It was heartbreaking to know he had a very short winded clock ticking above his head like a dark cloud threatening rain. Every stolen moment was precious and I was constantly on edge praying that his time wasn't cut prematurely. I was selfishly invested in this couple hoping that Saylor's lie continued just so the relationship would never end.
For the most part the supporting cast were well developed. However, I would have liked the mother and father's actions to be further explored. They were the enablers and possibly source of Saylor's condition, so I was curious of how and why they got so disconnected.
Overall this story was so very real for me. The lines of fiction were blurred; and I was able to fully escape diving in completely! Saylor was manipulative and broken....and crying out for help. Drew was broken and dying slowly...and yet he was her knight in shinny armor. Secret for a Song emphasizes that love blooms anywhere. And love heals....even the most broken elements in us. The ending was bitter sweet and is sure to not leave my memory anytime soon.
*I received a complementary copy of this novel for an honest review.
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